Emotions can run high… just like my blood sugars.
Sometimes when my blood sugar is high or I eat a lot of carbs…I don’t want my doctor to see my daily total go up or an outrageous bolus size. So I give myself a good ole fashioned shot. A few days ago I took 10 units from my pen because a sticky high would not come down. (It was sticky because I kept grazing from a gift basket sent to my department).
I know I shouldn’t be ashamed but I am. I feel guilty for not being tighter with my control, for eating too many carbs, for going over the “green line of doom!” on the Dexcom.
I doubt I’m the only one that feel this. Guilt is a powerful feeling, especially in diabetics.
So yes, I don’t want to rage bolus for a third time when my blood sugar won’t drop below 200 or when I say, “damnit, I’m having that pretzel roll!” Mmm… pretzel roll. But I will, just maybe in shot form.
That’s it for now because I must find a pretzel roll.